I am not well 我不舒服

Life is full of surprise and unpredictability, in other word, means plenty of stories.

On the second day of new year 2010 (Saturday), I went to my Kajang office to do some work. The accounting computer decided enough is enough.... refused to boot up. Must be system corruption .... on the way home, sent to the shop for repair.

On that morning, I was already feeling very lethargic, whole body feeling weak and pain. No fever, just plain tired. I lied on the couch most of the time.

I dragged myself to attend the wedding of Richard and later the wedding dinner in the evening.

I slept through the night till the next morning (Sunday), drifting in and out, turning and tossing, it was quite a painful sleep. I did not go for Sunday Mass. I kept lying on bed for the rest of the day until evening. This could be the longest time I spent on bed.

My heart was beating very fast but I am sure my heart is OK. (I have a heart scan one and a half year ago. See my good heart). I felt my chest was heavy... but somehow feeling like a heart burn. Could it be my stomach? But no diarrhea.

I did not know what was wrong with me.

Last night, I took 2 Panadol, one mild sleeping pill, and went to bed at about 10:00 am. It was quite a good sleep.

Feeling weak and a little bit dis-orientated after so much sleep, I told myself to get up and go to work, at least for half a day.

It was a terrible two days. Not feeling well was a terrible thing, but feeling bad is worse. While lying on bed, too lazy to move, hearing the sound of my wife doing the household chores was very unsettling and stressful.

Days before, my wife was taking down curtains, mosquitoes netting to wash and I would help her to fix back. There were more 26 sets (13 x 2 layers) of curtain, 13 sets of mosquitoes netting to be washed and re-installed. I have done only two rooms before floored on bed.

My wife herself is suffering from all types of pains and aches from neck pain to shoulder pain to fingers pain.

Some naive people would say to my wife" now not working, so free...". It is a great insult to her. House works are more tedious than office works.

My heart was not at peace, even with a sense of guilt. Getting out of bed, out of the house may help me feeling a little bit better.

Life is full of surprise and unpredictability.

me today
现时的我

生活充满惊喜和不测之事。

新年的第二天（星期六），我到加影的办事处处理一下事务。做帐的电脑在抗议说，“我够了”，不肯开机。。。可能是系统腐蚀，出来状况。回家途中，把它送去修理。

那天的早上，其实我已觉得不舒服了。身体好些很疲倦，提不起劲来，手脚好像有点酸痛，但没有发烧。感觉到心脏跳动很快，但我知道不是心脏的问题（我在一年半前照了心脏图），血压也正常，就只是要躺在椅子上。

我拖着身子去参加了婚礼及晚上的宴会。

回家后，就上床睡了直到隔天的早上(星期日），也还是懒得起床。彻夜翻滚，睡得好辛苦。我也没有参加当天的主日弥撒。整天都是躺在床上，直到傍晚。这可能是我花最多时间在床上的一天。

晚上在十点左右，吃了两粒班纳多，一粒微量的安眠药丸，好好的睡了一觉。早上起来，好像有点虚虚的，可能是睡得太多吧！但我告诉自己，马上起床，走出屋外，去工作吧，半天也好。

那是可怕的两天。身体不舒服够糟了，心里不舒服，那是更糟。趟在床上的时候，听到太太忙着在做家务的声音，心里非常难受。

几天前，太太把家里的窗帘及蚊纱都除下来洗涤，然后我帮忙她重新装上。我们的屋子不算是很大，但却有着26套的窗帘（双幅），加上13套蚊纱，虽是分批来洗，可也是不简单的工作。我在帮忙了两间房之后，就倒在床上了！

其实，我的太太本身也是受着各种疼痛的折磨。她全身都痛，从颈部，到肩，到手指。。

有些幼稚的人常对我太太说：“你不必工作，在家可闲着呢。” 这对她是一种侮辱。

她一天到晚都在为家务忙。家务比办公室工作更繁重。

我的心不安宁，还带有一些惭愧。趴起床，离开家里，到办事处工作，会感觉好一点。

生活就是充满惊喜及不测之事。