My hand phone was ringing this morning at about 3:15 am. Something urgent and not so good.
I went to bed about 12:30 am. Awakened after a while. Something crossed my mind... personal matter..... I remembered holding my head and calling to God:" Look at me, God, have pity on me...why???? where are you???" I was not dreaming. It was something disturbing me... too personal to share.
I calmed myself, telling myself "go back to sleep.....Z z zZ zz..".
Just fallen to sleep and the phone rang. It was Cecilia who was looking after Fr. Leo Chang in the Hospital. Fr. Leo Chang was re-admitted to hospital on Sunday morning due to deteriorating condition.
"Simon.... can you come over to see Fr.? I don't know what to do... he is shivering and shaking..."
"Have you call the nurse......" the line cut off.
Immediately my wife and I left for hospital. Frankly I was in a daze.
We did not say a word in the car but we knew what was in each other's mind and expected the worse.
Reached the Hospital after half an hour. When we reached Fr.'s room, it seemed quiet. A sign of relief......when I opened the door, saw Fr. was sleeping on bed and hearing his heavy breathing. We heaped a heavy sign!
Cecilia told us the nurse has given some drug to Fr and seemed OK now. We did not know what happened or caused it. Cecilia was very frighten that might have lost Fr. earlier.
Fr. was breathing heavily on oxygen. Once in a while, he would open his eyes and stared blankly at the ceiling. Not acknowledging our presence.
I looked at Fr.... thinking of myself. Will I be like him in 10 years...15 years... 20 years.. who will look after me? who to call in emergency liked just now...... May be I am thinking too much.
We went home at 5:30 am. Age is catching up. Tired and sleepy but got to go to office at 9.
Hardly sat down on my office chair, a call from a friend. It was a long talk (an hour) about problem she has with children.... Haaaiiiiiya... bringing up children is not an easy task. Life is not easy at all.
This is life. Life must go on. After the call ended, I left the office to collect payment from customers.... money - life - live.
This is reality... This is life! Life is still beautiful despite hardship, suffering and pain. Faith, Hope and Charity are graces from God for us to live a beautiful life ! Life is worth living :D
我告诉自己，冷静下来，回到睡眠去。。。要睡 Z zzzz Z z z zzz.
刚刚睡下，电话就响了。这是 Cecilia 打来的。她是在医院陪伴及照顾张神父。张神父在星期天，因为病情恶化，而再次进入医院。
这是现实，这是生活。虽有痛苦 、悲伤 、艰辛，但人生还是美好的。天主赏赐了我们信 、望 、爱 三德，就是要让我们能过美好的生活。人生是值得去活的！