Fr. Kang said:"Silent Retreat is emptying oneself, in a monotonous space of time, waiting patiently for God....
Yes,I was waiting for God, I have a lot to talk to Him, many questions to ask Him....
But, at Genting, in the drizzle, I did not see God; after the heavy shower, God has not come; in silent meditation, God was not there; in Centering, I did not find God at the depth of my heart. Looking up the night sky of Genting, I could see the Eternal City of Entertainment, I did not see God at all. At the dead of the night, I looked up from my bed, God is nowhere to be found...
I will wait, I will continue to wait, patiently. Faith means waiting, waiting for the Lord..
As Fr. Kang said: one must be hidden in order to find the hidden God. May be I need to retreat further to hide myself.....
".....Happy are those who have not seen and yet believe."John 20:29
Nevertheless, it was indeed a good resting and spiritual refreshing weekend !
Fr. John Baptist Kang
江奇星神父
Dominic Villa
Genting City of Entertainment
云顶娱乐不夜城
云顶娱乐不夜城
这个周末,我参加了一个静默避静。地点是在云顶山脚下的教会别墅 Dominic Villa. 十六位来自芥子福音传播中心、光仁服务中心及恒研心三机构的成员,在江奇星神父带领下,度过了四十八个小时静默的反省,特别是个人与天主的关系,默观自己的灵修及使徒生活。
江神父说,静默避静是:放空自己,在无味中,耐心等待天主。。。
是的,我是在等待天主,我有很多话要对他说,也有很多问题要问他。。。。
但是,云顶细雨中,我没触到天主;傍晚大雨后,天主没有来;在默想中,天主没有出现;在归心寻找时,天主没有在我的心灵深处。晚上我望著云顶的夜空,繁星隐约,远眺不夜娱乐城,我看不到天主;我倒睡床上,寂静的夜晚,在静令我耳鸣的房间
里,天主不知在何处。。。
我等待,我还是等待,我会耐心的等待。我的信仰就是等待,等待主的到来。。。
江神父说,我们要隐蔽自己,才能找到那隐蔽的天主。。。可能我还需要更自我隐蔽吧。。。。
“...... 那些没有看见而相信的,才是有福的!”(若20:29)
无论如何,这确是一个令我心灵休息及灵修一新的周末!
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