Friday, April 10, 2009

The past 过去

Today is Good Friday.

I told my wife not going to office, but to follow Lifebook 2009's teaching: each day do something good to others.

I will do something good to make her happy today by clearing my files and books shelves. She has been bugging me to do so for more than a year.

Checking and sieving through documents and files, mostly are record and minutes of church activities, meetings, functions, courses and formations for the past 20 years or so.

There are the record of my "glorious past". There are meeting minutes, correspondence, plan when I was the president/chairman of Regia, Curia, PPC, PCC. Many meeting files of past grand events that I was involved - Marian Congress, fund raising carnival of the KL Chinese Language Apostolate Commission at the Putra stadium, fund raising dinner for our new church at Wisma PGRM........

Should I keep them for record purposes? for information? for reference?

I decided not.... not to hold on to the past. They have no values. I do not need to go back to the past, I am living in the present. It is more important to be who I am now, not who I was before.

In today's Good Friday service, I will place all these onto the Cross.


今天是星期五,耶稣受难日。

我告诉太太今天不去办公室,留在家里,依照生活之书2009里说的:日行一善,使别人快乐。

我决定做一件另她高兴的事,就是整理我的文件及书架。这个工作,她已经吩咐我去做也有大约一年了。

查阅及整理了所以的文件夹,里面都是我过去二十年多里,教会会议的记录,活动的资料,参加过的课程及节目的文件。

这可以说是我过去二十多年来的“光荣史”。资料记载了我 是圣母军区域团团长、区团团长、堂区牧民协调理事会、堂区牧民议会主席时的会议记录,来往书信,计划书等等。还有就是参加或主办过的大型活动,如圣母军讨论大会,吉隆坡总教区华文教务促进会,在武吉加里体育馆举办的嘉年华会,建新教堂于吉隆坡民政大厦举办的大型筹款宴会等。

我是否要保留起来做为纪念?资料收藏?将来参考?

我决定不。。。不要保留这些东西。它们没有价值了。我不需要回到过去,因为我是活在现在。最重要的我是现在的我,不是过去的我。

我就在今天耶稣受难时,把这一些都奉献在耶稣的十字架上。

7 comments:

Pauline said...

I used be like the magpies. Storing all things and thinking that I will use them again "one day". That "one day" can sometimes be 10 years and yet I did not use them. I don't waste either. These days I sort them out and give away to people who will treasure it more than I.

I am happy that you have sort out your papers. At least, I know I have less to dust.

Ngu said...

说得容易,丢得难呀!你真的要把这些光荣记录全钉在在耶稣的十字架上吗?

我也曾经当过支团和区团秘书,总觉得做那些记录很无聊,谁来看?真的有人看,也是做样子,走马看花似。很快这些记录就变成废物。

当我卸任后,"打死" 也不要再当 "记录员"了。

现在来了《爱之光》,仿佛又在做另一种 "记录员",不过这还好,一期做完后,全在电脑里,不必再为收存和整理文件夹和纸张而烦恼了。

Simon Phun said...

要舍得。 我已经把这些送到我家后面“天空焚化炉”了。

不要眷念,不要活在昨天,也不要给昨天的彩虹或阴影笼罩你。。向前看!

Jonathan said...

Haha...Yes,less to dust. But just make sure you don't start accumulating stuff again! Letting go is not a bad thing.

All your "golden times" in office are etched in your memory, and ours too; I remember you leaving for meetings after Sunday mass and coming back in the afternoon in time for forty winks while we get ready for taekwondo classes :)

Anthony said...

一句很中听的话:“不需要回到过去,因为我是活在现在。最重要的我是现在的我,不是过去的我。”

西满兄,记得我太太在去年圣诞节时约了她的好朋友帮忙我掉东西,掉了很多,但还剩下很多,特别是《盼》季刊,还有书籍,我真的不知道怎么办,但我会知道,我会离开它们的一天,不知道谁肯去收留它,还是要我现在就把它从四楼往下抛算了,哈哈!给我一点指示。

Simon Phun said...

To my son Jonathan, hoped my golden times was not your miserable times. If yes, please forgive me. "I know not what I am doing" :D

I have given the best for God, I want my sunset years to be with my family and myself... but my children has grown up and "disowned" me...(joking only). I am devoting more time to things I feel happy doing, even doing nothing (laziness) is my happy thing to do..

The years past are no longer mine, and no longer I hold on to. But mine is today and tomorrow.

Side effects: put up with greetings like: not seeing you for long time (disappearing act?); "happy to see you coming to this ...(event)... "; "why don't see you at..."

They do not know what is "after life is also good life" and there is life after church life.

Frankly, I am as busy as before... of what? You should know if you are following my blog ;D

Simon Phun said...

不知道谁肯去收留它,还是要我现在就把它从四楼往下抛算了,哈哈!给我一点指示。

不要担心谁肯不肯收留,没人收留就让它回归自然。。。再循环可也!

老黄,我明白你的感受。没一份都是你的新血,不舍得丢弃。。。但想想,它已没有存在的价值了,不要再挂念,不要再留念。。丢了吧!

前面还有很多东西等着你去“收集”呢!